Taking Inventory

Sometimes I wake up and feel

Like I don’t want to be here

It sounds concerning

But I’ve come to realize

What that really means is

“I’m tired of living…in this way”

Something needs changing

Whether macro or micro adjustments

Such as quitting a job

Or taking a different route for a walk

This “not wanting to live” feeling can seem so big

Desperate

Emotional

Taking inventory can be helpful

What may be contributing to this feeling?

What could be done differently?

Is there something in my relationship, job, or environment that needs changing?

Identifying reasonable action steps from there

Most of the time it’s the monotony that gets to me

Feeling stuck in a box

Moving through the same routines

Never leaving the house

Or when I do

Driving within a 5 mile radius

Home is my safe place

However,

A free spirit cannot be contained

For long

That’s when this feeling comes to point in a different direction

Setting spirit free

Not from this world

But from restriction and routine

So if this feeling comes around

Remember:

It’s not the world you need to leave

It’s your current state of being